September 24, 2017
Originally posted on AboutMeditation.com.
A client of mine, who is a doctor, recounted a story where a patient of his came back to his hospital weeks after he had been seen. His patient was irate, feeling my client hadn’t “put the dots together” and therefore didn’t prevent his heart attack.
My client, with decades of experience under his belt, reviewed his patient’s chart and even with the gift of hindsight, concluded that he had given the best possible treatment to his patient at the time.
Despite his logical reassurance, a nagging voice remained in the doctor: “What did I do wrong? What did I miss? Am I an incompetent practitioner? What other clients have I provided poor care for?”
He shared this story to me and described how his inner critic wouldn’t leave him alone. He concluded, “Well, I must not be doing mindfulness right… or I must not be mindful enough.”
I replied that he is practicing mindfulness. But there is more to the story.